My heart is heavy tonight as I attempt a blog tonight.
Heavy because of..... tough decisions that had to be made and executed
....changes
.....internal struggles
As I think of words to describe this month, nothing actually comes to mind because it's been so
...different. Let me tell you why; the Lord has been at work in my life.
The plan to be in a missionary in Austria starting in September got moved to January due to the lack of funds. And from that came the decision to go to DMACC this semester and from that- moving to Ames and
continuing to work at Fareway.
When you have your heart set on going to do something like move to another country then are told you can't, it hurts. Flat out sucks.
But here's the deal; I'm going to move to a town where people need to Jesus too. People still need to know about the saving Christ and it's my job to tell them. I'll still be building relationships, connecting in with a church, learning new things and furthering my knowledge about life.
Situations change all the time, people change, you change, life changes....but my God is the same yesterday, today and forever.
It's sad to have to leave all my friends at Fareway who've become like family, my small group, church, friends and family but thinking about meeting tons of new people is exciting!
And to those who are wondering; Ian and I did break up. Nothing was wrong with our relationship but it felt like God was wanting us to direct our undivided focus on Him. We are still friends and it's not awkward between us. It's awesome to have a friend like Ian that will understand things like this and be so in love with the Lord ans who will cling to Him even more through this. It was hard don't get me wrong but God never said that doing the right thing would be easy.
With all this being said I have to leave with this: when you hear the will, the call of the Lord always go for it, never looking back on what could have been. #noregrets
